As previously stated in numerous blogs over the past few weeks, my stammer is becoming a little frustrating or more to the point I AM becoming frustrating. I know what to do but simply can’t correct myself. Debbie said herself the other day that i have become complacent and i have to agree with her. I know that i have accepted my speech as it is but i don’t know whether this is good enough. Should i be pushing myself more? Am i becoming too self critical again? I’m stuck in a rut with my stammer and i really don’t know how to get out of it. I have noticed that when i’m talking to strangers i put my techniques into practice. I take a deep breath, slow my speaking right down and feel in control, HOWEVER and his is the frustrating bit when i’m talking to family, friends and people i know i go to pieces and just resort to how I’ve always been. I start rushing, making noises, tapping, blurting and interrupting. I know i’m doing it but simply can’t stop.
I’ve got five weeks until we go on our cruise and i’m desperate to do more. I don’t want Debbie to be the one ordering everything and doing all the talking. In January when i started this blog and made the conscious effort to be pro active i was feeling very confident about where i was going with this, but now i’m holding my hands up and saying HELP!! This is where i’m asking for some interaction from you guys. Can you give any me and tips or advice as how to conquer this? All suggestions welcome
I can pretty much sum my week up like this:
Stammer: Rubbish more of the same
Photography: Rubbish, nothing new to shoot
Asthma: Picking up this week been fine hopefully with the warm weather coming in that’ll help
Personal wise, been ok, not great, not rubbish, just ok
So for today’s post it’s back to the origins of why I started writing this in the first place my STAMMER. For about 6 weeks now I have been very lax with my speech and to be perfectly honest I don’t know quite how to get out of this rut I am in. The problem for me is that I’m happy with where my speech is, it’s far from perfect and I am much less fluent than I was when I first started my blog but because I don’t feel frustration anymore does this mean I’m not bothered? Should I continue with my techniques when I am content with how things are going?
It’s a strange situation for me and to be honest it has me stumped, I DO want to be more fluent especially with the cruise coming up so soon but I don’t want to push things either. Although I have done two things this week that I haven’t done since I started my blog. I made a joke about my stammer and also stopped talking altogether. I did notice that I did it though and it did annoy me that I did it maybe I’m more frustrated than I realised.
I’ve still not got round to try the tai chi that I wanted to do, I just can’t motivate myself to do it at the moment. I’ve spoken in the past about my complacency and again it’s still there I can’t shift it, don’t know how to get rid of it either !!
Been a strange few weeks all things considered